10 Days ago I got on an airplane to Hawaii for an Actor Intensive Retreat, on The Big Island of Kona. I knew it would be a growing, important experience, and I would grow as a person, and an actor. What I didn’t know was how this would be a life changing experience, one that, I not only believe, but know- because I am committed to this transformation, that this experience will be just that- transformative. My eyes are open, and for me there is no turning back.
I have attracted this experience into my life. Prior to this trip I considered myself to be someone who was aware, in that I believed in the Law of Attraction, I had a vision wall, I read books about the Law of Attraction, I tried to navigate as a positive person, I worked hard at my craft, I believed I could do it. I believed in these things. But there is a difference in believing, a sort of leap of faith that has to occur, and with that comes a sort of disbelief- doubt. One doesn’t believe in the law of gravity, one just knows it to be a fact, that it is true. This trip has empowered me with the tools to believe in my power, my abilities, my dreams, my purpose, my connection, my love. From start to finish, this trip continuously showed me the truth: I create the world I live in. I have a choice as to how I interact in every moment. I can deliberately create my world. Affirmations are cute, but I’m more powerful then that. I am not a slave to my thoughts, but I can instead take charge of my life, my world, and my career and deliberately create, instead of responding positively, or as positively as I can to the things that happen to me. I hold the power.
And like with anything, with great power comes great responsibility. I want to give back. I want to continuously heal myself, so I can heal others. I want to have an open heart, to others, to strangers, to family, to friends, to nature, to trees, to birds, to ants- because we are all one. I am awake, and it’s what do I choose to do with that. To attempt to try to change others around me, would defeat the lovely work that has occurred these past ten days, and lead me back to controlling habits, and leave me possibly disappointed, and in a negative space. Talk is cheap, and instead I will walk the talk. By being what I know, and letting my light shine, will hopefully create a ripple effect, as light triumphs over darkness. A smile is contagious. Make’em laugh. Make them say, “hey what’s up with that guy, I want some of what he’s got going on.” I don’t have to try (while I do still want to be open to those who need me) If I’m living correctly in this new walk, all I have to do is just ‘be’- which is a beautiful thing. My playful, authentic self.
The island communicated to me, several times, that my spirit is playful. I had gotten so caught up in, the ways of life, and the beautiful blessings all around me, that I had created, and wasn’t enjoying my life. I want to be happy. I want to have fun. And I want others to do so as well.
On a work related note, I am so grateful to be going right into the business class, to further the teachings, of the world of acting from the business sense. There is so much to learn, and boy did I get my butt kicked in learning those auditioning technqiues. I am humbled by it, and look forward to growing, in the most healthiest way possible, and with lots of laughter.
I am so grateful and blessed to have gone through this experience. I think to call it an actor intensive retreat, doesn’t define it enough. I feel like I went to rehab. Where I connected to a power greater, yet equal to myself. I forgave. I healed. I worked towards my dreams as an actor. I was given tools to be successful in mind, body, and soul. I was shown how beautiful this world is. How beautiful we are. How blessed I am.
I am so grateful for the Big Island. I am so grateful for my grandmother, who in her passing, gave me the abundance to go, and connect with her in a higher level. I am so so so grateful for Jim & Melissa- what they have created is something that words can’t fully explain. They are such a gift to all who are fortunate enough to study with them, because you get so much more then just an “acting class”- it’s a transformative experience, that will have a lasting effect on your soul, making you a better, fuller, happier version of yourself, and thus having the same effect on the world. Two people who are impacting the world on a daily basis. I am so blessed to have found them and this studio, and for them giving me this opportunity. I am so grateful for my Ohana: Sandy, Krystle, Billy, Carlo, Chuck, Jillann, Larry, Carlos, and Mia, and of course Jim, and Melissa- who I shared this experience with on The Big Island with, and will continue to here on the main island as we continue to blossom, bloom, and fly to great heights- the places we were meant to go. I am so grateful to all of the family, all of our Uncles and Aunties on the island. The trees, the valleys, the places of healing, the van, the market, the paint on the walls, the stars, the music, the food, the beach, the rocks, the ocean, the sand- I am grateful to you all! I know you always remain apart of me, and live through me.
So now the real work begins, and I am so ready! I’m sure there will be falls, but it’s what I do when that happens, that matters. I feel empowered and ready to spread my smile, my healing, my joy, my power, my passion, my professionalism, my integrity, my laughter, my light. It’s time for this energy to evolve to what it’s meant to be. And I know that 10 days is not a comeback- but it’s one hell of a foundation. Thank you so much to all of you, that followed us and supported us.
I love you!